Deep one

It’s been so long since I last blogged. Perhaps, because I had too much thoughts to sort out.

All this time, I have only put the family on top of my priority list. Suddenly, I am thinking to myself, what do I do for myself? What do I do for myself? All this time, dare not think too much what I want to do, because always tell myself, ‘no time’.

Maybe I should find something other than work/family. I should start making small steps and accomplish one by one.
To find my answer I must first learn to love myself – do a facial with a fren, perm hair again, ask what I myself like to eat, try to 'siu myself', so that I don't get agitated by the kids, make healthy recipe for the family (oops!, that's not for me again!)

Workwise, I have taken the first step and successfully negotitated for half days with the company, but I have a feeling that this will not last long since the management is at expanding stage and may need individual who can commit more time. Maybe, need to find something else that I can have a small income, be independent, and yet have free time to do what I want.

Could it be, I have a philanthropic heart? Can I be a Tsu Chi volunteer/a social worker who visits the cancer patients? Well, this is a big step, I am not sure if I can do this. I just know that I want to help a fellow being.

Well, my Aunty Peck is fighting a battle after the 2nd operation on Monday. I hope she can be strong enough to overcome the cancer and she can regain her health as she did the last time. It makes me think, what can we do, when we are still healthy and able? Can we make a difference to another person's life?